Aami hote chai

aami to hote chai koto kichu
ja naki dekhi tomeder majhe
hote chai, hote chai, hote chai
kintu tar to kichu nei amar majhe

hote chai sundor
hote chai boqta
hote chai tomar moto garir malik
hote chai tomar moto porisromi
hote chai khela dhulate bhalo
hote chai sob kichute sera

ja hote chai na
se holam aami
amar moto aami to aami hote chai na
amar kono kichui jeno thik noi
ektu edike, ektu odike kore dile sabhab take
tahole aami o bodhoy hobo khub boro

sarata jiban sudhu katlo hote tomader moto
sob kichu roye gelo adhora ek sopno

aaj ese bujhte pari
aami amar moto sobchaite sundor
aamar "nai" gulir jonno noi
aamar moto kore aamar jonno
sei aami te aami purno
sei aami tei aami tar bises sristi

Heaven

Do you sit there when you're most tensed
Do you sit there when you're most relaxed

Have you not read the novel there
Have you not enjoyed the pure music there

Have you not got the most brilliant ideas sitting there
Have you not eaten the stolen jaggeries there

You've sit there in the morning
You've sit there in the mid-day
And even in the darks mid-nights.

You've enjoyed yourself there
And you've cried there without telling anyone.

You've taken pictures of your kid sitting there
And you've waited like the dead when your wife was sitting there

I'm sure by this time you know this heaven
This is my paikhana.

Beautiful

I was walking along the road
And I saw a flower.
It's red in color
And it smells nice.

When I asked what's this called
Someone told me this is rose - but a wild one.

Oh - a rose, it's always beautiful
Wow - let me enjoy it's beauty.

I go to the tree, and look for the flowers
And suddenly I saw the leaves and the thorns.

Aren't these also beautiful !
Or they're more beautiful than the rose.
I've never thought in this way.

So now I look closer and closer
Which one is beautiful.

Is it the whole combination
Or the individuals.

I look into the rose first.
And I look into this deeply.

It's the bud, the petals and the bee on it.
And another closer look.
Which is beautiful ?
Suddenly there is nothing expect the rose - no beauty, no ugly
Nothing but the flower.
Uh ! Not even the flower.
There is something there,
Which I've known as a flower
And which once I knew as beautiful.
But now there is nothing there.

What about the leaves and thorns?
These are also there.
As good and bad as the rose
Same.
Nothing is there.

But the whole is there.

Isn't it the same around.
I saw around.
Something or the other these are called.
Road, brick, house, cars.

The whole is there.

(I've taken the picture from http://www.justourpictures.com/roses/imgs/valentinesdayredrose.jpg )

Beggars as Kings

Getting influenced by UG Krishnamurty a lot. Lots of videos available on Youtube.
The best (or worst actually!) shot was that there is not even a single thought that I'm the owner - not even a single one. And see how proud I'm of "myself". Everything taken on debt and still behaving as if I created that kingdom - what the hell.
(Do not believe in a thing because you have read about it in a book. Do not believe in a thing because another man has said it was true. Do not believe in words because they are hallowed by tradition. Find out the truth for yourself. Reason it out. That is realization ---- Swami Vivekananda)
Another point which excited me - The people in the name of religion are running brothels.Come, pay , get some entertainment and go back. No question is asked from any party.

Pain Points

This is a term used by Ekharte Tolle - the writer for "The Power Of NOW".
He says that you don't need to do anything on those pain points - just be aware to it, see it - and it vanishes.

The whole life is full of these pain points - have you ever noticed:

Eating Chocolate/ Icecream will increase weight
There is an ideal weight
There is a god and sees everything you do
Life is for loving
I need to be a CEO
I need money
I need to understand others
I'm not normal
................. and the list goes on (rather whatever you're thinking is a pain point)

Doing nothing and just seeing those will open those knots - try and enjoy freedom.

Mind

It's like universe- starts with a big bang, expands, collapses and dies when it can dissolve everything.

LSD

From the time I can read newspaper, I remember one common topic that is reported again and again – sex and swamy.


The very first one I can remember is Osho – I was small at that time when he died. And the newspapers would provide all the news of him – what and hows of his ashrams. The name of his one book (I think most of the people know the name of the book and they don’t even care whether there is any other book or not) is the main attraction and it’s not necessary to read or understand before making a remark on that book. Very frankly by the time I entered college I never read about his books – and there were few students who believed in his thoughts in our hostels. I was very clear about one thing – they’re not the right people. And in my world I was not interested to know about these people.

Osho’s picture for me was his “golden taps” – how bad he’s I could easily guess from his taps.

Now came the time when I started reading, listening to Osho’s thoughts – and I’m floored by that – what an extraordinary person one can be !

And everything he said made a new world available to me – my life got a new opening to think and listen from a different perspective. And whatever you tell – whatever stories you can throw to demean this person – it’ll never change the high place for him.

In the process I started reading and listening to another swami – his newsletters and youtube videos shattered my world of thinking and pushed me further to think beyond what I could.

And see the paradox of life – now he’s the new attraction for sex drama. I hope all of guessed by this time who this person is.

Now the very fundamental question that I’m asking myself – why is it taboo in our country that our swamis can’t indulge in activities which is natural and I don’t know anyone who is showing anger not indulged into those activities.

Swami’s can’t have non-veg, they can’t stay in a five-star ashram, they can’t have sex and the list goes on.


This is where we’ve degraded ourselves by promoting swami’s more than what you and I are – they’re the very same. Only thing is I and you don’t take any responsibility of life and hide behind those people – and when we see that they’re same human as we’re , we can’t accept that too.