Finding it back !!!!!

Dont even remmember when I last wrote on this blog.....today I just searched for my name's blogposts and came back here. Nice to see earlier posts and what I wrote at that time. Read that post about death where I said I am content, no aspect where I can say I would like to achieve before I die. Many years have passed, still enjoying life as always. JGD

Death

The other day I went to a house where the man has died two days back. The lady was guarded with many others from the church. It seems that the ritual is to not keep the new widow alone and people will stay around the body is buried. Another lady came with food and I was told that the neighbors and church people will cook foods and provide, nothing will be cooked in the house. I remembered a meditation process (if not wrong, buddhist way and told by Osho). This process says everyday you meditate on death -that every moment you be aware that you can die any moment and may be even today. We all know that we'll die , but some other day and not today. The very first thing that came to my mind is that if I die right now will there be even a single unsatisfied area -and surprising the answer was no. Then I asked one by one , what about career, what about money, what about sex, what about enlightenment .....and all the answers I got was I'm so ok with all aspects in life , if I die now also, no discontenment. From that time I ask myself often about anything and everything - I'm ok with the current state. Even if death comes I'm ready for it - the only request that I had is on the next births let me start from here, and not go through the learning phase once again. JGD.

Chaaki

Sei ononter kono jawab nai !!!
Sob kichu banaise , jate naki aami protyek muhurte dekhi je aami alada.
Kiser cheye alada?

Somudra - Bisalata
Gaan - Sur
Khabar - swad, roop, ros, gondho
Manush - Swabhab

Ki na sei onnoter karigori - kintu amio charar patra noi.

Amar-i choritro guli amake janai je ami ami noi, ar tate thake uskani - mone rakh tui alada.

Boddo muskile porlam

Kar sathe kotha boli,
Kar sathe hasi kheli.
Kar sathe kori prem,
Eta khelchi kemon game.

Aami-e jodi hoi sristkorta,
Aami-e jodi hoi sristi,
Aari aami-e jodi kheli sob choritroke
Beche thake na sujog kono abhijoger.

Aami-e aami,aami-e tumi.
Aami-e sei jar pechone chutechi honno hoye.
Aami-e aakash, aami-e batash,
Aami-e sei gohon oronyo.

Aami-e email, aami-e gmail
Aami-e internet-er pita.

Ononto sangeet ase amari theke,
Abar khudrotomo kona-o aami.

Er nei kono suru, nei kono sesh,
Eri modhye mile mise aami achi besh.

Amar choritre aami

Aami bisyabidhatar ek guti (pawn) matra - er besi kichui noi.
Tar kichu choka natoker ek obhineta matra - natok to koto age-i lekha hoye geche.
Oi natok to bodlabar noi - jar jar choritre sobai osadharon obhinoy kore choleche - amio tai korchi.
Hothat kore kichu gote jawa ghotonar opor nojor gelo - jar mulyayon aami already kore diyechilam jiboner bhul bole -
amar kache seguli chilo unwanted ghotona.
Kokhono takiye dekhini onno dristite - amar uposhiti chara sombob hoto na kichu ghote jawa - ja naki hoyeche sei ghotonagulite.
Er modhye bhalo-r sondhan aami peyechi. Aami thik sei bhabei ghotonate na thakle sei bhalor sombhobona sesh hoye jeto.
Sombhov hoto na onner jibon poth ghure jawa.
Aamar thik ei rokom chehara, ei rokom sorir, ei rokom moner chinta, ei rokom kothabarta --- thik eitai dorkar ei natoker jonno.
Nato ek bindu besi, na ek bindu kom.

Freedom

You must have heard about how money is defined – money is what money does.
The same way freedom is what freedom does – and the more you give it the more you get it.
Freedom is not independent like money – for money there is an independent money, rupee or dollar or pound – and anyone see and identify it. In a country wherever you take this note or coin people will identify that this is money – so it’s having independent identity.
What happens with freedom is it’s always associated with something or the other – freedom of country, freedom of relationship, freedom of money.
If you notice that it’s freedom “of” something and not freedom “from” something that I said. So there can be freedom “from” something – and I’m not interested on that right now.
Earlier I wrote that the more you give freedom the more you get.
Let’s see what I said – say suppose I said the more freedom I give to money, the more freedom money gives me – it does not say the more freedom I give to money, the more money I get. So what does it mean then? – let’s explore.
Long back I asked my father if I like sweets there are two ways to stop it – either I can eat lots of sweets till I start disliking sweets or I can simply abstain from it. In both the ways the desired result is gotten – so which way is better? At that time, my father told me the second option is better as in first option, I’ll start eating sweets after few days or months when the effect of eating huge sweets is gone. But in second way I can always restrain from it.
After so many years, I get that neither of the options actually work. I don’t have any freedom from sweets in both the ways – sweet is actually what I’m eating all the times – in my conversation – first by knowing that I can eat sweet any time – second way knowing that I can’t eat sweet, so ending up eating it. So what’s the way out? Here comes the question of freedom – to be free of the relationship of sweet. How? That you need to find out – I can tell you, but I’m sure it’ll not make any difference. Just a clue – you can still eat a lots of sweets and still have freedom from sweet.
In the name of freedom of anything people strive a lot, get that and end up as a slave to that. You need freedom of money, slog for it, earn it and become a slave of it.
The trick is give freedom to sweets and sweets will give you freedom. You take it as absolute truth this works for everything. In this freedom you can still earn a lot, and still end up being free.
Now you may ask – why should I’ve freedom of anything – and the answer to it is it gives you a huge freedom in your way of life and choice in life to live. Just consider for a moment that you are free of all relations, of money, of sex – how it’ll be to live like that – I experienced its bliss. Still I can have anything or nothing – and end up free from that.

Paap - Punya

From the time a child is born s/he's taught about hell and heaven. If someone is doing good job- one is sent to heaven and for bad jobs to hell.
And closely assosiated with this is paap-punya. The good job goes to the account of punya and bad jobs accumulate as paap.
And there is a big kadhai full of hot oil, where you'll be fried for all your bad deeds.And you've the option of beautiful Urvashis for good jobs (what happens to the females?).
There was a big calender showing all these in my childhood.

If you think about every activity in life, it stops with some assosiation with "self".

If you put a shirt, do I look good?
If you cook, did I cook good?

Everything stops with "I & me".

The question of paap-punya is closely assosiated with this "I & me".
Everything that is interpreted and kept with a 'mass' along with that, there is long term impact - every moment of life it'll guide you.

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Now comes the second part:

Have you ever thought of the experience, that in your birthdays you never find you've aged one more year.
And there is always a sense that I'm not going to die.
Deep inside this feeling is there, that I'm not aging and I'm not going to die.
There is something inside which knows that this is true - we're never born, not aging and never going to die.
I Am - always.

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When you add one and two - the experiences one carries is of long time. Not vanished with the death of the body.
If the good jobs and bad jobs' experiences are not 'okayed" these'll go with the birth-deathless form and put a sheet of guilt or sin always.
You've got this life with this body to "okay" all these experiences.
Choice is yours - to accumulate or dissolve.