What's next

“What matters the most is the money that I take at the end of the month.” This is what I used to think even a few days back.
I’ve changed four jobs in last ten years and every time with a fatter pay cheque. And every time I was thinking this is what I was looking for. I’ll be greatly satisfied and happy in life. And this new job profile is what I was looking for. The last job was good, but this looks to be a better one. Both in terms of money and job responsibility.
Alas! Every time it comes out to be a recursive problem. Initially few days in the job and I’ll think the last organization was so good; they’re having those benefits and that employee friendly policy. Once this period is gone and I’m settled in the job, I start liking the new office and new colleagues and my job profile I’m start settling. Now few months gone and the mind start talking. You’re not getting the best package, you’re deprived. How? I don’t know. Talk to my colleagues and friends. Now it’s becoming more and clearer I’m missing some thing in life. So is this the dream job! Talk more and more to friends. More and more confusion. More and more mind is getting disturbed.
Then ask friends do you know any better opportunity in the market that is available. Yes, it’s there. You need the contact info of the consultants? Take these.
Then I start making calls to them, write mails to them. Some of them are friendly, some not that friendly. Friendly ones will tell, “Yes some options are there. Right now I can’t give the details. Please send your latest resume and I’ll take care of the rest.” Not that friendly one will tell “Please let’s have a look in your profile, and we’ll come back to you.”
If I’m lucky I’ll start getting calls. May be some interviews also, here and there. Something happens, eventually I’m not selected. Now I start jumping more and more. What’s happening? Why are they not selecting me? Is something wrong with me? I hope not. But I can’t sleep properly in the night and get annoyed with everyone in life. Guess who is the worst effected? Who else! Wife and kid. So they’ll also start behaving the same way. The ball actually bounced back. Then I’ll push that harder towards them and it’ll come at the same speed. Ultimately these will start looking like ace services from Sampras.
As this drama goes on and on, I become like mad. In the office also I start misbehaving with all. They also start avoiding me. I’ll tell “Who cares. I’m not worried about relations. If they don’t know how to behave, I’m least concerned.”

So this drama is going on and on.

Then what? Where am I going to stop !