Chaaki

Sei ononter kono jawab nai !!!
Sob kichu banaise , jate naki aami protyek muhurte dekhi je aami alada.
Kiser cheye alada?

Somudra - Bisalata
Gaan - Sur
Khabar - swad, roop, ros, gondho
Manush - Swabhab

Ki na sei onnoter karigori - kintu amio charar patra noi.

Amar-i choritro guli amake janai je ami ami noi, ar tate thake uskani - mone rakh tui alada.

Boddo muskile porlam

Kar sathe kotha boli,
Kar sathe hasi kheli.
Kar sathe kori prem,
Eta khelchi kemon game.

Aami-e jodi hoi sristkorta,
Aami-e jodi hoi sristi,
Aari aami-e jodi kheli sob choritroke
Beche thake na sujog kono abhijoger.

Aami-e aami,aami-e tumi.
Aami-e sei jar pechone chutechi honno hoye.
Aami-e aakash, aami-e batash,
Aami-e sei gohon oronyo.

Aami-e email, aami-e gmail
Aami-e internet-er pita.

Ononto sangeet ase amari theke,
Abar khudrotomo kona-o aami.

Er nei kono suru, nei kono sesh,
Eri modhye mile mise aami achi besh.

Amar choritre aami

Aami bisyabidhatar ek guti (pawn) matra - er besi kichui noi.
Tar kichu choka natoker ek obhineta matra - natok to koto age-i lekha hoye geche.
Oi natok to bodlabar noi - jar jar choritre sobai osadharon obhinoy kore choleche - amio tai korchi.
Hothat kore kichu gote jawa ghotonar opor nojor gelo - jar mulyayon aami already kore diyechilam jiboner bhul bole -
amar kache seguli chilo unwanted ghotona.
Kokhono takiye dekhini onno dristite - amar uposhiti chara sombob hoto na kichu ghote jawa - ja naki hoyeche sei ghotonagulite.
Er modhye bhalo-r sondhan aami peyechi. Aami thik sei bhabei ghotonate na thakle sei bhalor sombhobona sesh hoye jeto.
Sombhov hoto na onner jibon poth ghure jawa.
Aamar thik ei rokom chehara, ei rokom sorir, ei rokom moner chinta, ei rokom kothabarta --- thik eitai dorkar ei natoker jonno.
Nato ek bindu besi, na ek bindu kom.

Freedom

You must have heard about how money is defined – money is what money does.
The same way freedom is what freedom does – and the more you give it the more you get it.
Freedom is not independent like money – for money there is an independent money, rupee or dollar or pound – and anyone see and identify it. In a country wherever you take this note or coin people will identify that this is money – so it’s having independent identity.
What happens with freedom is it’s always associated with something or the other – freedom of country, freedom of relationship, freedom of money.
If you notice that it’s freedom “of” something and not freedom “from” something that I said. So there can be freedom “from” something – and I’m not interested on that right now.
Earlier I wrote that the more you give freedom the more you get.
Let’s see what I said – say suppose I said the more freedom I give to money, the more freedom money gives me – it does not say the more freedom I give to money, the more money I get. So what does it mean then? – let’s explore.
Long back I asked my father if I like sweets there are two ways to stop it – either I can eat lots of sweets till I start disliking sweets or I can simply abstain from it. In both the ways the desired result is gotten – so which way is better? At that time, my father told me the second option is better as in first option, I’ll start eating sweets after few days or months when the effect of eating huge sweets is gone. But in second way I can always restrain from it.
After so many years, I get that neither of the options actually work. I don’t have any freedom from sweets in both the ways – sweet is actually what I’m eating all the times – in my conversation – first by knowing that I can eat sweet any time – second way knowing that I can’t eat sweet, so ending up eating it. So what’s the way out? Here comes the question of freedom – to be free of the relationship of sweet. How? That you need to find out – I can tell you, but I’m sure it’ll not make any difference. Just a clue – you can still eat a lots of sweets and still have freedom from sweet.
In the name of freedom of anything people strive a lot, get that and end up as a slave to that. You need freedom of money, slog for it, earn it and become a slave of it.
The trick is give freedom to sweets and sweets will give you freedom. You take it as absolute truth this works for everything. In this freedom you can still earn a lot, and still end up being free.
Now you may ask – why should I’ve freedom of anything – and the answer to it is it gives you a huge freedom in your way of life and choice in life to live. Just consider for a moment that you are free of all relations, of money, of sex – how it’ll be to live like that – I experienced its bliss. Still I can have anything or nothing – and end up free from that.

Paap - Punya

From the time a child is born s/he's taught about hell and heaven. If someone is doing good job- one is sent to heaven and for bad jobs to hell.
And closely assosiated with this is paap-punya. The good job goes to the account of punya and bad jobs accumulate as paap.
And there is a big kadhai full of hot oil, where you'll be fried for all your bad deeds.And you've the option of beautiful Urvashis for good jobs (what happens to the females?).
There was a big calender showing all these in my childhood.

If you think about every activity in life, it stops with some assosiation with "self".

If you put a shirt, do I look good?
If you cook, did I cook good?

Everything stops with "I & me".

The question of paap-punya is closely assosiated with this "I & me".
Everything that is interpreted and kept with a 'mass' along with that, there is long term impact - every moment of life it'll guide you.

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Now comes the second part:

Have you ever thought of the experience, that in your birthdays you never find you've aged one more year.
And there is always a sense that I'm not going to die.
Deep inside this feeling is there, that I'm not aging and I'm not going to die.
There is something inside which knows that this is true - we're never born, not aging and never going to die.
I Am - always.

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When you add one and two - the experiences one carries is of long time. Not vanished with the death of the body.
If the good jobs and bad jobs' experiences are not 'okayed" these'll go with the birth-deathless form and put a sheet of guilt or sin always.
You've got this life with this body to "okay" all these experiences.
Choice is yours - to accumulate or dissolve.

Meditation: Medication through attention

Medication is required in case of diseases : when you're at real dis-ease. And at that moment comes the doctor with his known arsenal of syringe and/or jari butiya.
After a few days of the course you're out of the ailment.
Now in this situation you know when you're going through ailment and require the doctor.
Have you thought of a situation when you don't know that there is some dis-ease and it's killing you.
Example sir pls ..... okay :

Ideal Weight (something like BMI you already know)
Money (Not enough what I've, something more will be nice)
Friendship (I can depend on him/her, that person is not worth of friendship)
Career (Need to excel, promotion, salary)

I don't need to explain on any of these - someday somewhere you know about these diseases, and that's where meditation comes into picture.
Attention is what is missing - when you don't even know about the diseases.

So attention will expose the ailments and when the exposure happens, the devil (though not a devil, I don't have a better word for it - it's your best friend till your attention is missing) dies.
When the death starts one after another, life is awesome - simply a joy.

Enjoy your life - through medication of attention.

Aami hote chai

aami to hote chai koto kichu
ja naki dekhi tomeder majhe
hote chai, hote chai, hote chai
kintu tar to kichu nei amar majhe

hote chai sundor
hote chai boqta
hote chai tomar moto garir malik
hote chai tomar moto porisromi
hote chai khela dhulate bhalo
hote chai sob kichute sera

ja hote chai na
se holam aami
amar moto aami to aami hote chai na
amar kono kichui jeno thik noi
ektu edike, ektu odike kore dile sabhab take
tahole aami o bodhoy hobo khub boro

sarata jiban sudhu katlo hote tomader moto
sob kichu roye gelo adhora ek sopno

aaj ese bujhte pari
aami amar moto sobchaite sundor
aamar "nai" gulir jonno noi
aamar moto kore aamar jonno
sei aami te aami purno
sei aami tei aami tar bises sristi

Heaven

Do you sit there when you're most tensed
Do you sit there when you're most relaxed

Have you not read the novel there
Have you not enjoyed the pure music there

Have you not got the most brilliant ideas sitting there
Have you not eaten the stolen jaggeries there

You've sit there in the morning
You've sit there in the mid-day
And even in the darks mid-nights.

You've enjoyed yourself there
And you've cried there without telling anyone.

You've taken pictures of your kid sitting there
And you've waited like the dead when your wife was sitting there

I'm sure by this time you know this heaven
This is my paikhana.

Beautiful

I was walking along the road
And I saw a flower.
It's red in color
And it smells nice.

When I asked what's this called
Someone told me this is rose - but a wild one.

Oh - a rose, it's always beautiful
Wow - let me enjoy it's beauty.

I go to the tree, and look for the flowers
And suddenly I saw the leaves and the thorns.

Aren't these also beautiful !
Or they're more beautiful than the rose.
I've never thought in this way.

So now I look closer and closer
Which one is beautiful.

Is it the whole combination
Or the individuals.

I look into the rose first.
And I look into this deeply.

It's the bud, the petals and the bee on it.
And another closer look.
Which is beautiful ?
Suddenly there is nothing expect the rose - no beauty, no ugly
Nothing but the flower.
Uh ! Not even the flower.
There is something there,
Which I've known as a flower
And which once I knew as beautiful.
But now there is nothing there.

What about the leaves and thorns?
These are also there.
As good and bad as the rose
Same.
Nothing is there.

But the whole is there.

Isn't it the same around.
I saw around.
Something or the other these are called.
Road, brick, house, cars.

The whole is there.

(I've taken the picture from http://www.justourpictures.com/roses/imgs/valentinesdayredrose.jpg )

Beggars as Kings

Getting influenced by UG Krishnamurty a lot. Lots of videos available on Youtube.
The best (or worst actually!) shot was that there is not even a single thought that I'm the owner - not even a single one. And see how proud I'm of "myself". Everything taken on debt and still behaving as if I created that kingdom - what the hell.
(Do not believe in a thing because you have read about it in a book. Do not believe in a thing because another man has said it was true. Do not believe in words because they are hallowed by tradition. Find out the truth for yourself. Reason it out. That is realization ---- Swami Vivekananda)
Another point which excited me - The people in the name of religion are running brothels.Come, pay , get some entertainment and go back. No question is asked from any party.

Pain Points

This is a term used by Ekharte Tolle - the writer for "The Power Of NOW".
He says that you don't need to do anything on those pain points - just be aware to it, see it - and it vanishes.

The whole life is full of these pain points - have you ever noticed:

Eating Chocolate/ Icecream will increase weight
There is an ideal weight
There is a god and sees everything you do
Life is for loving
I need to be a CEO
I need money
I need to understand others
I'm not normal
................. and the list goes on (rather whatever you're thinking is a pain point)

Doing nothing and just seeing those will open those knots - try and enjoy freedom.